Sunday, 27 July 2014

Sunday Morning,

Well I am sat in my PJ's thinking about getting dressed. 

Today I don't have work till 4.30pm - 8.30pm short shift that frustrates the hell out of me LOL! Wait all day to go in and then run around like a loon for 4 hours then home again. Its the waiting game that gets to me. I am finding I am very fidgety and need to be moving.

So what's the plan today.

Well I hope to be a good weight watcher today, although hubby still loves his roasts on a Sunday so roast beef tonight. Fruit and salad are the order for the rest of the day.



This morning I have decided I may pop into the shop to get back some of my craft goods from when I moved house. It has to be done, but to be honest it fills me with dread, A) as I don't want to craft at all and the sight  of all my stuff depresses me and B) when I go near the shop I have a panic attack and have an overwhelming sense of failure. 
But it has to be done, and have little time to do it as I must return my keys to Karen.

Hopefully exercise will clear my mind xx

Thursday, 24 July 2014

Things are turning a corner!!

And I seem to have found my

Again!!!

Slowly but surely I am feeling happier about myself. 
I have learnt if I have  a goal to aim for it keeps me sane.

So have put in place plenty. 
College and new career being one of them plans.

I also have discovered I am not happy if I am eating junk all the time, 
so have started to eat healthily again, 
another thing I have learnt
 that if I exercise during the day 
I am more awake in the moring, 
happier and able to do more over the course of the day
 and sleep better at night. 

So WW, swimming, running and gym are planned in for most days.


I have made a decision to have a total break from all things crafty.
No Knitting, Sewing or Papercrafting. 
So No Stampin up! either.

With this in mind I am going to sell off some bits. 
Not all of my stuff will go as I may come back to it in a year or two.

But my (Hardly Used) Cricut Expression and stamps I know I won't want, will go.
Along with a cuttlebug as well.

I still have sadness going on (much love to all my cousins that are bracing for a sad day) but its not weighing me down like it used too every day, the depression is still there and I had a really bad spell on Saturday/ Sunday, its something I am learning to live with, there is no quick fix, but I won't let it pull me down every single day. I am stronger than you and you won't win!

Hugs

Tracy xxx
  


Saturday, 19 July 2014

Today is going to be a very PINK day!!

Although I am working this afternoon it is only a little shift. 4.30pm-8.30pm.

Today is most definitely dedicated to all things pink!
This morning I was wondering around the local B&Q garden centre when I spied a Dahlia and My instant reaction was - " Aww thats my ANN!"

Ann was a friend who passed away recently and to be honest I am still in total shock she is no longer with us, and that I won't see her cheeky smile or hear her naughty laugh again. Ann was such a bright, vibrant happy LADY in the true sense of the word.

So the flower had to come home with me


 DAHLIA - Fascination
Now to be known as "My Ann"

Happy Sigh!

When I finish work tonight at 8.30pm

Most normal sane people would be heading home for a Saturday night relax.
but not me, oh no, this girly is changing into a pink tutu, pink wig and trainers.
Meeting up with some friends and walking 15 miles for St Luke's Midnight walk.

MAD!! Yep!
so from 10pm till I crawl over the finish line in the early hours of tomorrow morning think of me.
Will try to pop a picture on tomorrow of me in all my finery xx
bye zee bye xx